While all my other friend's biggest problems seem to revolve around what new dishes to make for the aftaris and what dresses to get for eid, I struggle with getting through each day. I feel jealous of how simple their lives are. I spend my days sad and worried and wondering how will I make it through the next year, financially, emotionally and physically. How will I manage to pay the school fees , the house rent, the bills......
Spent the whole morning unable to get out of bed, trying to google a solution for at least one of my problems ,''what to do if u have a broken heart'' , '' ways to feel better when you are down'' , '' how to mend a broken spirit''
I won't say good solutions didn't come up, but none provided me the relief I needed. Then around noon giving up hope I collapsed into bed again, drained and exhausted................................ when I felt two little hands massaging the soles of my feet..... ohhh...... then I realized how touch deprived I had been, the little hands continued to massage my feet and then the little voice said, '' mama, I will sing u a lullaby that will help you fall asleep, and when u wake up you will be okay''..... next came the sound of tunes being played on a toy piano and an accompanying 'make as you go along poem'....... that finished , the little hands came to caress my cheeks and pat me on the shoulder...... comforted like nothing else had comforted me before..... I closed my eyes and let myself float in a sea of serenity and peace..... reassured that mama had fallen asleep, the little hands tucked their favorite toy doll in the bed with me........ it was then I realized I didn't need to google any solutions ...... my biggest support, the biggest source of comfort in my life was right there...... my 5year old daughter......
Spent the whole morning unable to get out of bed, trying to google a solution for at least one of my problems ,''what to do if u have a broken heart'' , '' ways to feel better when you are down'' , '' how to mend a broken spirit''
I won't say good solutions didn't come up, but none provided me the relief I needed. Then around noon giving up hope I collapsed into bed again, drained and exhausted................................ when I felt two little hands massaging the soles of my feet..... ohhh...... then I realized how touch deprived I had been, the little hands continued to massage my feet and then the little voice said, '' mama, I will sing u a lullaby that will help you fall asleep, and when u wake up you will be okay''..... next came the sound of tunes being played on a toy piano and an accompanying 'make as you go along poem'....... that finished , the little hands came to caress my cheeks and pat me on the shoulder...... comforted like nothing else had comforted me before..... I closed my eyes and let myself float in a sea of serenity and peace..... reassured that mama had fallen asleep, the little hands tucked their favorite toy doll in the bed with me........ it was then I realized I didn't need to google any solutions ...... my biggest support, the biggest source of comfort in my life was right there...... my 5year old daughter......
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